Had an interview today with a stationary store and I think it went really well. Based on working at William Arthur and my mad computer skillz, I think there's a pretty good chance I'll get this. Which is a really good thing because I was starting to seriously consider selling my plasma. The pay is only a little bit less than what I made at William Arthur too.

Other than the job search, not much has been going on. Duia's Mom and her sisters came to visit for a few days. They're all pretty awesome. Duia's littlest sister totally reminds me of myself. She's adorable and a total nerd.

Being around Duia's Mom was nice but also really really hard. Seeing all three of them doing mother daughter stuff just reminded me that I don't get to do that anymore. Of course, there's really not a whole lot that doesn't remind me of that.

I talked to Scott from William Arthur today. Scott's an awesome guy. I always called him my work husband, not because there was any romantic stuff but because he was always there for me to talk to. And because I fed him pie.

I've pretty much decided that I will be going to Boston next month for Duia's friend's wedding. I'm hoping I can see Scott, Aaron, and Dave. I shouldn't spend the money AT ALL, but everything that's happened in my life recently has made me desperately crave something familiar. And New England is familiar.

I've been slowly coming to the realization that it's going to be a long long time (if ever) until anyplace feels like "home" to me. Texas makes me miss seeing green things. It makes me miss that first bite in the air that says fall is coming. It makes me miss the masses of orange gold red brown leaves hanging from the trees like jewels. It makes me miss the way the mountains look like they're burning when the maple leaves turn, and the first taste of cider in Vermont. But no matter how much I might miss those things, I can't go back because there's nothing to go back TO. If I walk through the streets of Stowe or Newburyport or Keene, I'll see the charm and the familiarity of those places, but I'll also know that I'm missing someone who's supposed to be walking with me.

You see, I always talked about how I grew up Winchester style, moving from state to state and never having any real roots and how it never bothered me. That was and still is 100% true. I never cared where my home was because wherever we were WAS home. But suddenly I'm adrift in the world and NO PLACE feels like home. And I know it's only been seven months. I know that New Hampshire or Vermont or Virginia or North Carolina wouldn't feel like home either. I know there are no easy answers to this. I know that there's no fix to this.

This was supposed to be a happy entry about how I hopefully will have a job soon, but talking to Scott just made me remember the way things used to be and how I didn't even know how happy I was.

• 14:45 Little Caesars gave us free pizza omg! #
• 15:29 @kingnixon We ordered a pizza through the drivethru & when we went to pay the girl told us not to. This needs to happen EVERY DAY. #
• 15:30 @ginandjews I'm sure if they don't have any Jew in them you could help them out with that. #
• 15:33 @kingnixon I think it was implied that we're AWESOME and deserve free shit. Or she really hated her job. Either way, free pizza! #
• 16:16 @ginandjews ONLY IF YOU SHARE ME WITH MISHA COLLINS. #
• 21:11 I knock on your window. You stop just in time. I say, "Baby, I thought I'd come along for the ride." #

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• 16:27 @fuckyeahjenny Bunny in a teacup! So much better than what I saw last night! #
• 20:37 At Amy's dressed as Esmeralda from "The Hunchback of Notre Dame" for Disney Princess night! #

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• 02:38 OH MY FUCKING JESUS I OPENED THE MEDICINE CABINET AND THERE WAS A ROACH. #
• 02:38 I JUST WANTED TO BRUSH MY TEETH AND NOW I HAVE TO FREAK THE FUCK OUT. #

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So today Duia and I did some fabulous cooking. She rocked out her delightful Cajun curry. Anyone who has known me for more that a day knows that I have a giant boner for all things autumn or Halloween related. And with Halloween comes PUMPKIN.

( MMMMMM PUMPKIN! )

• 23:24 Woody: "I'm glad to here Duia likes Jewfros. I was looking at her facebook and I'm pretty sure we should makeout." #

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• 14:03 @threadless Today I'm rocking Imposter In The Bird Hotel. #threadless #
• 20:46 @marishna That sucks so much! You're okay tho, so that's what matters. Poor Edward. Seeing an injured Yaris is so sad! #
• 20:48 @delosmuertos THEY HAVE MINT OREOS. THEY NEED TO BE PURCHASED TOMORROW Y/Y? #
• 02:00 @delosmuertos twitpic.com/7s0zb - That might be the best thing ever. #
• 02:26 I found God in a catalytic converter in Topeka on a Monday night. #
• 11:04 @mahgret I have a 500 GB LaCie that I really like. Easy to use and it looks pretty awesome too. #

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I just started my job search. I applied at Greenpeace and am hoping that works out, but it made me remember that our lease in Maine was officially up in the middle of June 2008. If my Mom had never gotten sick I would have been in Charlotte for a year now.

Part of me really wishes I had some kind of window into my AU life where I could see what I'd be doing and the person I would have been if that life had happened. The other part of me knows that all that would end up doing is depressing me more.

It's just hard not to wonder.

I miss the mountains.

Talked to Dave for like an hour and a half tonight which always puts me in a good mood because Dave is a hilarious individual and a terrible person. Woody also might be visiting in the near future which would be pretty freaking awesome.

I'm still wondering though.

If there is one person or more on your friends list who makes your world a better place just because they exist and who you would not have met (in real life or not) without the internet, then post this same sentence in your journal.

Love you flist!

• 00:00 Just finished part one of the Draco trilogy. Oh LORD HP fandom! #

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• 02:01 Get to sleep in my bed tonight because giant hole in my wall is fixed! Huzzah! #

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• 22:28 FUCKING BEES. I JUST STEPPED ON A DEAD ONE AGAIN AND IT HURTS. DIE YOU EVIL MOTHERFUCKERS. #
• 22:59 WHY ARE THE BUGS ATTACKING ME? I JUST KILLED FOUR JUNEBUGS. MAKE IT STOPPPPPPP! #
• 23:32 @mahgret We're having that in Texas too. It's called JUNEBUGS ARE DESTROYING MY SOUL season. #
• 23:40 @mahgret Why did you tell me that?!?!?! ::Is never sleeping again:: Plus bugs that divebomb you are EVIL. #
• 23:48 @mahgret AHHHHHHH NOT OKAY. Luckily I have my can of Raid and my VACUUM CLEANER OF DOOM to defeat them. #

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• 00:17 Whoever said time heals all is full of shit. #
• 00:24 Once upon a time there was a girl who had it all but didn't know it. We all know how Grimm's ends and a mother never survives in Disney. #

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